True love…clearly
Reevaluation
My life is good. I love my Stephen… I had my doubts and I think we both needed a kick in the butt. I’ve been cut, literally I no longer have a gallbladder and although I know he has wanted to kill me at times, he did such a good job taking care of me… I’m soooooo lucky to have him.
… Now hopefully he doesn’t come home from work all grumpy and I feel the need to delete this post!
Lol :-)
Sometimes I’m sorry isn’t good enough.
Here: the place that you aren’t.
I’m about to stop sitting at home alone and start going out….
It’s funny how things can seem so much better and then fall right back to where they were.
A friend if mine was telling me how he stayed at his gf’s house while she was at work and wrote her a bunch of random notes and left them around her house for her to find… I thought wow, people actually do that? I called him a mush, but I think it’s very sweet how much he thinks about her and wants to do nice things for her.
I need to clean out my car and hang a mirror that I forgot I had.
I haven’t worked this much in a long time. It’s like I’m pulling camp hours, but not nearly as bad. I made some sales though, so that’s good.
I can’t wait to get out of sales actually. I hate selling people stuff.
Soooo I see the doctor this week about getting my gallbladder taken out. How exciting? Part of me wonders if what’s going on with my body, isn’t 100% my gallbladder. Who knows.
I still don’t feel like I’ve started school. I go to class, but things are so simple this semester that I can’t seem to get a grip on things. It’s almost like I don’t care because I’m so close.
I hope soon, that I will have some clarity on where my future is going. That would be so nice.
My motivation levels for everything is slowly dimensioning. I dunno why though. It’s like I just don’t care. I wish I could find something that made me want to get up every morning.
Night lovelies.
1-30-2012 gratitude
Today I am thankful for hair extensions. I feel pretty and I’ve gotten so many compliments. It’s crazy.
I’m thankful for my blanket because it keeps me warm even when no one Is here to keep me warm.
I’m grateful for some of my co workers. They are just kind of amazing and I can’t imagine surviving this job with out them.
I’m grateful for technology. I love that I can talk to do many people even though I really never see them.
Lastly, I’m grateful , again, for my amazing mom and dad. If I didn’t have to be at work so early, I’d definitely be staying with them this week.
Good night world. :)
1-29-12 gratitude
I keep forgetting to do this. When I do it though it’s like I can feel how much more positive I am.
1.) I am grateful for my mom and dad. I can’t imagine this world without them. When they do leave this place, I will be completely devastated. I am hoping to make a point of seeing them more. I love them more than anything. I wish I could see them more, and this sounds crazy, but I miss living with them. Weird? Right?
2.) I am grateful for the foam topper on my bed. Omg, it’s like I’m on a cloud.
3.) I’m grateful for music. It feeds my mood, makes things clear, makes things ridiculously unclear. Music makes my emotions feel. It helps me deal with life; it helps me deal with the uncertainty that is surrounding me.
4.) I am grateful for our right to bare arms… I’m glad for the extra protection. This is a weird one, but for as much as I freak myself out about things, it’s good know that I have something besides my mad martial arts skills to protect myself with.
5.) I am grateful for snuggles. You don’t realize how much you miss them, until they aren’t here.
There are 5 more minutes in today and then starts a new day. Tomorrow I hope to be more positive and more direct and clear with my goals. I hope to be stronger with my self control and my ability to carry things through.
Tomorrow I will take charge of my life and will start taking charge of my health.
Woot! Good night my lovelies… All three of you. :-)
